Solitude is a very beautiful and high artistic conception. One must be able to have the ability to be alone, and only then can one be regarded as a truly mature person. Only in practice can one truly enter the Dao, and then one must be able to truly enjoy solitude. Only then can the Dao be hopeful. To reach the state of mastery, sooner or later practitioners must complete this task alone.Generally speaking, being an ordinary person is usually afraid of being alone, because being alone can easily make people feel lonely, lonely, negative, disorganized, and inferior, and it can also make people feel bored, restless, and depressed. What’s more terrible is that when you are alone, you cannot Do not really face your true face alone, and this is something that most people are afraid of and used to avoid. Therefore, in the world of five desires, there will be all kinds of lively entertainment facilities. The market is born from the habit of being alone. Looking at the development and prosperity of these places, you can understand the psychological state of most people in modern times.

The ability to be alone needs to be learned. Few people are born to enjoy solitude without being disturbed by internal and external realms. I am very fortunate that I have a good opportunity to exercise in this life, so that I can finally taste a little bit. The freedom and beauty of being alone is really hard to come by, but the relative taste of French is also particularly sweet.I feel that if a person can truly feel comfortable and happy in solitude, then there should be nothing to be too afraid of in this world.I myself have been learning Buddhism for more than ten years. Because of the blessings and blessings of various negative conditions, I can finally taste a little taste of sadness.

In the past, when my mental state was relatively immature, even in the crowd of lively people, I felt lonely, lonely, helpless, and afraid.Today, when my mind is becoming stronger and stronger, even if I live alone, I feel that there is warmth everywhere, and I am alone and not alone.In fact, for me, being alone is only more convenient for some static aspects of study and work, and it can serve all beings more efficiently. At the same time, it can also make the body and mind achieve a relaxing effect of deep rest, reducing some of the rhythm in the group. pressure.Right now, I really enjoy being alone, and at the same time, I am very happy to live a life of achievement with the public in a group. The only difference between the two is that they have different tastes and functions.

I remember in early XNUMX, when I just decided to go to Taitung to find land for construction, I wanted to take this opportunity to exercise my ability to be alone in a more comprehensive way. Before that, I was not really independent. In terms of life experience, although there have been about three years of self-cultivation in the closed room of the Jingshe, it can only be regarded as the forward stage of exercising inner solitude.To build a dojo in Taitung, an unfamiliar place, inside and outside, from finding land, buying land, preparing land, renovating old houses, planting trees, and growing vegetables, all these were completed by groping with no experience, and the folk customs are conservative. In the Taitung area where exchanges are closed, it can be said that there is no ready-made help at all. All these unprecedented experiences are exactly the challenges I look forward to facing alone. I would like to take this opportunity to see if my ability in this area can be improved. to what extent.

But as a bhikshuni, walking alone or even entering the village alone, this is already a violation of the second chapter of the monk's precepts in the bhikshuni precepts. Although it is still possible to practice the mana to get rid of sins, it is a very serious precept in the ordination precepts, because The crime committed is almost equal to being half-crippled, so it is called "monk disabled".But it is also strange that these four monolithic precepts are not formulated on the side of monks.The number of precepts for monks is XNUMX, and the number of precepts for monks is XNUMX. In terms of fundamental precepts, the two groups are similar. In other respects, monks have many more precepts.These four precepts are mainly formulated from the consideration of prevention of committing precepts or safety. They are not serious crimes that hurt morality, but they have the function of preventing serious crimes or dangers, so they are listed in the second chapter. One of the major precepts.In today's Taiwanese religious circles and even overseas areas, there are too many bhikkhunis who have committed the four precepts, not to mention in the mainland where there are few reasons for learning the precepts.Because it is very difficult to fully uphold these four precepts. Basically, two or more people must stay within a certain distance of each other day and night. Just imagine how this is possible?Wouldn't that be the same as conjoined twins?Of course, there are many skillful conveniences that can be done, but it is limited to living in the sangha together, and there is rarely a lifestyle of going out. , so many bhikkhunis are really unable to keep these four exclusive precepts.

For me, I cannot have the karma to keep the four precepts. Of course, I should look at it with shame, but relatively speaking, it is also another opportunity for me to improve my practice. Therefore, I will follow the current situation and karma. It is used to focus on the practice of being alone. In this way, the time for practice is not empty at all, and now I can finally realize a little bit that the original self-interest and altruism can really be different, and can indeed be done at the same time.Practicing the Bodhisattva Way is not necessarily only when serving the crowd among the masses. When practicing alone, every bit is also solidly saving the sentient beings in the present, as well as paving the way for future sentient beings and preparing lessons, even through the use of Internet technology. If you are developed, you can play the student incense board in the void every day.Since I came to Taitung to live in Taitung alone in XNUMX, the preciousness of these years has indeed benefited a lot. I have personally experienced that it is very difficult and difficult to live alone, but this is also a good time to hone. , you can see a lot of reality from it.Now I finally understand why ordinary beings, no matter what class they are in, always need to form factions, because in this way they will not be bullied for being single, and many things will be easier to accomplish.Since I was a child, most of me have lived in a circumstance of being cared for, and my personality is also a bit willful and arrogant, so I don’t even bother to form parties, because I really haven’t felt that I have to use it. In the past few years of living alone, I have encountered many tests in this area, and I have really seen that people of all walks of life do have this phenomenon of bullying the single and fearing the public, bullying the good and fearing the evil. No wonder the general public Naturally, they like to form gangs in groups and gain momentum, but if they can't form gangs with like-minded people, but instead live with the villains, the price they will pay in the future will definitely make themselves regretful.

Fortunately, as a monk, I have the protection of the Three Jewels and the Response, and with my personal perseverance, I was able to overcome these trials one by one, and only now can I create my own small world.For example, when I just bought the first piece of land on the outskirts of Taitung City, there were a dozen or so neighbors nearby who did not learn Buddhism, and some even did not know how to respect the Three Jewels. Ascetic monks wandered to our area and lived in a workshop of a neighbor. Not long after they lived, they were given various comments by neighbors. They did not know how to respect ascetic monks at all. The treatment is really bad.As for me, a single aristocrat who is a new immigrant, most of them seem to be unable to hold a hoe (young master), and most of them have the attitude of watching the play on the side. On the surface, everyone will greet each other politely. , said some nice things, but in fact, no one ever took the initiative to help anything. On the contrary, there are some people who want to wait for the opportunity to earn some money from the Three Treasures.

When I first came here, I really looked stupid. Not only did I never even take a hoe, but I couldn’t do all the rough work. I didn’t even get a working deacon after I became a monk. At that time, there would also be some anxiety and anxiety in my heart. I always had to do everything with fear and fear, including taking the car from the narrow and steep ramp, when reversing the car into the dojo and parking it. If you are worried that you will get stuck on the side of the road with poor technology and you need to call for help, it was really a joke at that time.Another example is how on a typhoon day, how do I take care of a dojo that covers an area of ​​nearly XNUMX square meters, while also taking care of my own safety and the terrifying threat of strong winds, power outages, and old roofs being blown off.Once I encountered the unique Foehn wind in Taitung area. When I woke up early in the morning and walked outside the door, the temperature felt about XNUMX or XNUMX degrees Celsius. When I walked into the room, it seemed like the air conditioner was on. In the early morning, the strange heat outside seemed to be still. The air, very much like entering a new world like Mars, also feels like entering a time tunnel, very strange, and my mood is a little tense.Soon I encountered the doomsday prophecy of XNUMX. Before that day came, I was thinking of arranging to spend time with the monks in the Buddhist recitation hall in Taipei. Later, I temporarily decided to face it calmly by myself. Accepting the challenge is another experience subject for advanced practice.The time of the prophecy is approaching, and I seem to have everything ready. Sitting quietly by myself, reciting the Buddha’s name, listening to the countdown of the clock ticking in my ears, in that kind of atmosphere, it really makes people have to let go. The matter of life and death, including the fear of death that most people who sleep alone usually worry about, what will happen?Is it hard to die?Has anyone found the body?What do others think... Wait, these delusions have long been thrown out of the sky.Anyway, at the end of the day, people who can survive by luck can only envy those who have died, because they can only see the desolation, and they have to clean up the terrifying mess of corpses. Is it really better to live?The experience of meeting the prophecy of the doomsday alone gave me a great breakthrough in the small worries about life and death, and it seemed that I had entered another level of liberation deep in my heart.

During the years of solitude in Taitung, although I often arranged trips abroad to spread the Fa, I was still isolated from the world, completely independent, absolutely quiet, and never clinging to each other. In the process of this determination to solve all difficulties by myself, I began to experience the confidence and fun of being alone. It is a higher level of enjoyment, a very personal world, and cannot be shared by ordinary people, but in that realm It made me feel closer to the Buddha and Bodhisattva. Maybe when I am alone, I can only rely on Him more wholeheartedly and ask Him for protection, so it is easier to sense Taoism.Now, when I enter this quiet space, and then go to the public from here, the feeling of living with the public is very different. At the same time, he secretly retains the absolutely quiet and independent self-space that he once tasted. The two can exist at the same time without feeling the slightest conflict, but instead have the effect of blending and adding points.In this present state, a great sense of satisfaction can arise in my heart, which gives me the confidence to enjoy every situation with joy and anticipation when I am alone or with others in the future.