The process of my participation as a deacon in Buddhism is also very dramatic.When I was a novice, I once ascended and resumed lectures at the Daxiong Hall of the Ancestral Court of a certain nun’s precepts and sangha in Beijing. During the three-month period of placing orders there, the audience for each promotion and resumption of lectures was almost full. Even during the XNUMX sandstorm, which was called the biggest in many years, the audience still attended the lecture with both young and old, and the scene could be said to be unprecedented.Why can I be a novice in a traditional ancestral monastery in mainland China, and public gatherings were still strictly controlled by the Communist Party at that time, but I was able to openly ascend to three seats in a Beijing monastery under the eyes of the emperor In the end, I was able to safely and successfully complete the dharma karma. This karma is not easy for even the local masters in mainland China, let alone me, a Taiwanese compatriot with a sensitive identity?I’m not sure, it’s not impossible for me to disappear out of thin air in Beijing for no reason at that time, so when I was about to leave Beijing, the abbot’s head teacher spoke to me earnestly, and she said, “Speak from your heart. , I really admire your daring to ascend your seat here." I replied, "Where! Where! I admire your old man's daring to ask me to openly ascend your seat." This abbot is a very courageous person. Please, I will not have the opportunity to cooperate.All of these are not ordinary karma. If it were not for the blessings and arrangements of Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, it would be an impossible task at all.

When it comes to the process of spreading the Dharma, we must start from the time after I ordained.^上net^underThe old monk Kong had the wish to learn the Fa, so he decided to leave his permanent residence in Taipei, and went to Singapore Buddhist Laymen Forest alone to place orders. At that time, I was a fool who didn’t understand any rules in Buddhism, and I just wanted to enlighten my teacher.^上net^underUnder the seat of the old monk Kong, he set his mind and studied the Fa, until he was successfully reborn in the Land of Ultimate Bliss, and he had nothing else to ask for. How could he have thought that today he would have the opportunity to undertake the family business of the Tathagata to spread the Dharma.Later, I was fortunate enough to participate in the fifth Dharma promotion training class of the Singapore Jingzong Society. It was originally impossible. I have explained all these experiences in detail in the lecture CD of "The Forty-Eight Vows of the Infinite Life Sutra". What came to my mind was that among the more than thirty monks who were ordained monks and fellow practitioners with doctoral degrees in the fifth session of the Dharma-promoting training class, I was lucky enough to get the fifth grade that the old monk personally graded and graduated, and the old monk asked me to arrange for me. Opportunity to live and serve as a teaching assistant at Jingzong College in Australia.During the period when I learned to study and teach the scriptures, although the obstacles and retributions from the time I left the permanent residence were still constant, the Dharma joy power of the old monk’s personal blessings not only enabled me to go through all kinds of hardships until graduation, but also The happiest time when I was close to the Jingzong Society was that I could study with my most admired teacher almost every day, and occasionally I could eat the local food that the old monk brought back to the students after a few days of preaching abroad. I have always felt a special kindness in Singapore, and the Singapore Jingzong Society is like my second home for Dharma study.

At that time, after I was recommended for admission to participate in the Dharma promotion training course under the blessing of the old monk, according to the procedure, I first needed to fill in the registration form to the general affairs officer. There was a clause in it that impressed me particularly, that is, every admitted person must be in the Fill in the wish letter on the form, and you must make a vow that after graduating from the training class, you will continue to spread the Dharma for the rest of your life.Afterwards, I kept these words in my heart. Although I rarely saw my classmates or seniors who really had the predestined relationship to preach the Fa on the stage for a long time after graduation, I felt that I should try my best to practice this wish. Only by spreading the Dharma uninterruptedly, can I repay the splendid nurturing karma of the old monks and the whole society. Even in the years after graduation, I encountered strong setbacks in the Sangha ordination and the way of listing. Under the protection of the Holy One Master Lin Chan Monastery, the karma of An Dan's permanent residence in the Po Lam Chan Monastery in Hong Kong, I am still thinking about the responsibility of preaching the Dharma and the wishing text on the registration form for the training class. Therefore, from the beginning, I never planned to live in Baolin for a long time.

Later, after observing the causes and conditions in many ways, and after facing many obstacles, I thought that the future of propagating the Dharma and benefiting my life in this life is uncertain, and as a woman, I have many obstacles inspired by the karma of my past life, and I don’t have enough karma. , The desire to spread the Fa and benefit life gradually cooled down helplessly, thinking that it might be better to close the gate of life and death for three years to seek rebirth, and then come back later to make a wish!At that time, my intention to seek rebirth was already very firm, and I even planned to finally achieve this goal by cutting off water, fasting, and chanting Buddhahood. , this process is also the first time I have experienced the state of mind experience in Buddhism.In the end, I still listened to the words of Master Shengyi, and temporarily gave up the idea of ​​becoming a benevolent hero. After I returned to Taiwan in XNUMX, I changed the three-year life-and-death quarantine to the three-year convenient foot ban. The name "Puxian Guanfang" also received a large clothing newspaper with an inscription written by Master Shengyi for Guanfang.During the period of the ban, except for a period of time when I was invited to the Taichung Dojo, which was newly established by Life TV, to give a class every week, most of them stayed in the closed room to read Tibetan books and worship Buddha.During that period, it can be regarded as a quiet and peaceful day. For the obstacles of preaching the scriptures and spreading the Dharma, I can use a normal mind to view the causes and conditions. I can really put aside the right and wrong of the past, and just follow the current cause and condition. I also began to have the experience of participating in other sangha groups. During the years of study and even when I was admitted to the Taipei Yuanheng Buddhist Institute, I was full of Dharma joy and benefited a lot. .

In this way, a few years of peaceful study time passed quickly, until one day in XNUMX, when the karma for officially spreading the Dharma matured. He had no choice but to be invited back to the podium and officially became the messenger of Amitabha.From that time on, the obstacles to propagating the Dharma that I used to worry about in the past have really come to the fore, and the test often catches you by surprise, and even feels unbelievably outrageous and terrifying.At that time, the origin that brought me back to the podium was like this. During the few years of my study, that is, when I was studying at the Buddhist Institute, I accidentally saw the only book on the bookshelf in the living room of the institute. , and it's a quote from Master Shandao that shouldn't have appeared on the newspaper shelf. It contains many original teachings of Master Shandao. After seeing it, my heart froze, and all the XNUMX pores in my body stood up, and my heart seemed to be beating violently. Intuitively, I felt that the sentences presented here were true words, truths, and pure Pure Land practice, because it made my doubts that I had accumulated in the past ten years of specializing in Pure Land Dharma suddenly become clear, and all explanations were reasonable. It was reasonable, and it was useful at the moment, so I really began to believe and entered the gate of the Pure Land. All of this was entirely due to the blessing and response of Master Shandao, who came back from the incarnation of Amitabha Buddha.

Then I devoted my whole heart to research, and re-inherited the pure and pure pure land thinking, from Nagarjuna Bodhisattva's "Easy Works" in "Vipassa", "Rebirth" written by Tianqin Bodhisattva, and the annotations of Master Tanluan The "Notes on Rebirth", Master Daochuo's "An Le Ji", and Master Shandao's five volumes and nine volumes, all of which are linked by the pure land thought. Over the years, the process is really joyful, and I really deeply taste the Dharma flavor of practicing the pure pure land method.Later, when I accompanied a Malaysian bhikkhuni back to Malacca to visit relatives, I first accepted the initiative of a Jingzong society, and then I accepted the arrangement of other societies one after another, and started to promote the idea of ​​good guidance. At that time, the audience was very enthusiastic, and all of them had great confidence and great joy. During the next two years, I continued to accept arrangements from the south to the north at the Pure Religion Society in Malaysia. Everywhere I went, the audience was a treasure. When I was born with great joy, my confidence in rebirth in the Pure Land was quickly built up, and I gained unprecedented peace of mind. During those two years, I spent almost half of my time voluntarily preaching the Dharma on the podiums of the institutes all over Malaysia every day. Even the plane ticket to go was initiated by the guardians around me, so that period of time can be regarded as a little bit of what I have done in return for learning to cultivate.

However, just before this extraordinary dharma condition appeared, the obstacles that I had to face sooner or later finally became clear. The presidents who originally praised my lectures and teachings that pointed to the core points and gave me respectful worship. , With the various obstacles that conflict between interests and interests and the weak roots of their own will, they soon completely forgot their original righteous thoughts and benefits, and many leading presidents of the societies from the south to the north also exchange news with each other. They secretly turned to resist slandering me together, so some societies stopped asking me to speak, and the whirlwind of good-guiding ideas I brought up in various societies cooled down.Facing this situation, for me, I just see it as a time for me to complete my merits and retire, because I have already placed the diamond seeds of good guiding thoughts into the hearts of those who are destined, one by one. Personally, I don’t expect any fame, gain or return, so it’s just everyone’s loss to quit work early, but it’s my sanctuary, and I have no intention of gain or loss.

At the same time, many fellow practitioners began to participate in the recording of the CDs of my teaching, which were widely circulated at home and abroad with my avatar, and they were also able to perform their duty of preaching the Fa. The great influence must be to inspire relative obstacles, but the whole process can be regarded as a complete meritorious deed to me, but I never imagined that after returning to Taiwan for meditation, this obstacle to propagating the Dharma would still not stop. On the contrary, it has expanded even more, and it can be seen that I still hold a very heavy weight in the hearts of many people, and that’s why everyone is so exhausted to eliminate karma for me.I remember one time I met a layman in a vegetarian shop who took the initiative to approach. During the conversation, I learned that I was filling in "Amitabha in the Heart" and "The Song of Bliss" in the series of CD-ROMs "Who Knows the Suffering in the World", "The World's Suffering" The lyricist of "The Way of Liberation" and "The Bells of Peace", she had long admired me for many years, but now she had a chance encounter with the deity. This layman with the heroic character of Shandong people immediately tried her best to introduce me to the Taichung Lotus Society to preach the Dharma. That time I met with the person in charge of the lotus society and we were very happy. The lecture period and posters were announced soon, but I didn’t expect the posters to be taken down immediately after a few days after the announcement. I came down and told me that it was because a certain great virtuous monk called to take care of this matter, and she also heard about the process. She cried a lot at home for two days because of this incident, and she even said that I was the one who suffered. I was wronged. I was obviously not like what they said. In front of my face, I always asked me to let her come forward to defend me, but I stopped me. I just said to her plainly, everything will happen. !Anyway, I'm used to the care of these gods. If people want to get in the way, it's useless how you explain it. All of this is related to the karma of the past, so let's eliminate the old karma!    

But the obstacle at that time, perhaps especially because I could not let go of the blow in this straight-hearted layman's heart for a long time. Seeing that she seemed to be a little too sad, it was difficult to accept that this kind of thing happened in Buddhism. I really can't bear to see it. She was so innocently injured in vain, and she was anxious for a while, so she immediately wrote a letter asking us to deal with it fairly. I did it, and soon the old monk Qingkong also asked the attendant Brahma to reply to me and said that he could not be allowed to go to the world to talk about this matter!So in the end, of course, it's over.At that time, of course, I also understood that it is inconvenient for the old monk to come forward. This will also make the old monk very embarrassed, and I only sympathized with the lay monk for a while, but I wanted to complain to the old monk, and it is not necessarily required. What is the result? Originally, a preacher of the Dharma should prepare himself psychologically. For example, if the old monk often warned his students, in the future you will make fun of you and not take you seriously if you don’t teach the scriptures well outside. If you preach the scriptures well, it will be even worse, and you will definitely have nowhere to go in the future.I believe in all these teachings, because I have personally confirmed them all the way at home and abroad, so I was prepared to live in seclusion and self-cultivation, and even I was about to retreat, planning to stop preaching the Dharma in this life, starting in XNUMX Constantly being invited to preach the Dharma is entirely just a matter of chance, and not something that I deliberately arrange.

Now I feel that these external obstacles are not in the way at all. I will do more if I have a fate, and I will not do it if I don’t. There is no difference at all. What really made me heartbroken is that these obstacles are the most powerful. They all come from their own family members. There are elders and classmates in the training class. If it is really like the old monk said, the common people are not so direct because of the conflict of interests, and the obstacles may not be so strong, and the people around them If there is no right view and right deeds or people who have misunderstood the reality of the situation, those who use the righteous teacher to exterminate evil teachers, protect the law and protect the teaching banner, the obstacles are huge, and the attack is heavy, it is really enough to make people sad and despair. And lose heart.In fact, situations like these don't only happen to me, but anyone who preaches the scriptures and stands on the stage will almost always face this kind of situation, especially women, the obstacle is even more unimaginable, this is because According to their own karma, women's karmic status is relatively inferior to men's, and since ancient times in China, it is also very obvious that men are superior to women, so up to now, there are very few women masters who can successfully ascend to lectures and preach the Dharma. The land is small, it is not that there are no nuns in the religious world, but most of them will endure until they have nowhere to go and die in loneliness. The only ones who can really survive are probably only a few highly educated mages who can stay. In the Buddhist academy, I teach some students who have signed up and can’t escape even if they want to run. Of course, occasionally I can teach students who really want to learn, but if they really want to go to the big seat and face all kinds of karma from all over the world. Ordinary people's ruthless trials and difficulties, or secretly facing various rivalries with a group of good power fighters, it is really ugly to die if you are not careful, it is not such an easy task.Once the ignorance of sentient beings arises, especially when there may be conflict of great interests in the imagination, the fighting behavior may be more terrible than a rogue.I have also heard a senior from the mainland tell me personally that they had been promoted to a seat in a temple in the northeast, and only when they uttered an objective comment on the old Master Jingkong, they were coaxed off the stage by those enthusiastic believers on the spot, causing the two of them to travel together. The male mages fled in the lecture hall.

I heard that some of the so-called underworld friends in the society can still be very moral. Especially in the early gangs, if you want to mix in the Dao, you must have quality, and you are not just a rogue.And if Buddhist practitioners are ignorant, even though they are famous as Buddhist disciples, their hearts and actions are actually more terrifying than wicked people, because they are just under the banner of righteousness and salvation, and they can deceive themselves, berate and suppress them as a matter of course. Those who contradict, the one who strikes is merciless, because they think that this is a righteous act for heaven, and they are afraid that if they don’t quickly and completely eliminate those teachers of wrong knowledge and wrong views, they will harm more people in Buddhism in the future. At the moment, all their own behaviors of the three poisons can be rationalized and legalized, because everything they do is for the sake of saving Buddhism and all sentient beings. The so-called righteousness and righteousness.In the end, it should not be difficult for a discerning person to distinguish who is evil, who is compassionate, and who is compassionate.In today's Buddhism, this phenomenon is very common, and this is exactly what the old lay Buddhist Li Bingnan said: "Why is there so much chaos in Buddhism? There are too many "good people". "These good people sacrifice their time and energy to practice morality, concentration, and wisdom, and they are dedicated to doing the righteous things of the Buddhist police all day long, suppressing their so-called evil laws and evil teachers everywhere. Such people are truly pitiful and terrible people. .

The reason why I have been able to preach the Dharma for many years at home and abroad today, despite being able to survive in the cracks in the face of countless obstacles, is not only because of the merciful guardianship of Father Amitabha Buddha, but also because I am a good enough Daoist. I don’t take the initiative to show off, I don’t force anything, I just point to it, and I don’t do it for my own fame or fortune. If someone asks me to teach the Fa, if no one asks me to do it, I will study by myself in the mountains.I usually eat two meals a day and sleep in a container house built by myself with a tin cover. If the air conditioner is not turned on, the temperature in the house can reach XNUMX-XNUMX degrees Celsius during the day, and it can be as cold as minus zero in the cold night in winter, such as If you live in a cold storage room, the facilities of the dojo are so poor that you probably don’t want to give it to others, so you don’t have to worry that someone will rob the dojo to interfere with your practice.The Dharma that I promote is entirely based on the thoughts of the Patriarch, so people who want to ask questions can't clearly point out where I have wrong knowledge and wrong views, and what is wrong with the Dharma.For many years, I have been obligated to support the magic weapons and teachings at home and abroad. I have never taken the initiative to make connections with people for more than ten years, and there is no transfer account left on the circulating CDs, and I have never had a relationship with anyone. The money is not clear, so some people try to find me to make a fuss on purpose, but I can't find it. I came here to socialize with friends. Those who know me know that I am the most stern mage who specialises in rewarding students with incense boards. They even sometimes drive away those great Dharma protectors who are too habitual. They would rather offend people than accept any inappropriate support from them, so as to save the future, it will be difficult to handle according to law if they owe favors.In fact, I adhere to these principles like this. I have never been short of Dao food for XNUMX years since I became a monk. I decided that I would not starve to death, not to mention that practitioners do not live for food, they need food for the sake of cultivating the Tao. If I want to be greedy for profit, then it is better to cultivate at home and have a chance to enjoy the great reward generously.

Based on my personal experience, I would also like to protect and recite some monks and nuns who are kind-hearted and motivated to spread the Dharma for the benefit of life. , Because it is very easy to rise to the throne too early to spread the Dharma, it is easy to attract the internal and external demons and lose the Dao heart. You should first put down your own precepts, concentration, wisdom, and endure hard work for decades. A truly rewarding person.Personally, it was because of the unique opportunity of the old monk Jingkong who was determined to cultivate and teach the Dharma, that I was fortunate to be promoted to lectures when I was a beginner, and even for more than ten years, I was able to form a wide range of Dharma connections at home and abroad. Being able to record a large number of CDs and circulate them both at home and abroad, this is the first reason I entrusted my teachers, teachers, and knowledgeable teachers. But all these experiences have really made me deeply feel that being young is not a good thing, and ordinary people are indeed prone to adversity. Or the old monk's original intention of cultivating talents is actually just to let students study in their own dojo and lead their own believers to practice together for a long time, not to let us learn a little bit of sermons It is not like this, if this is the case, it will cause the students to die under the influence of fame and fortune, I am afraid it will be difficult to turn over again, and the kindness of the old monk training will become sinful. .

As far as my personal karma is concerned, it was not my will to study and teach the scriptures at first, it was completely random. Later, after I was forced to leave the study, I saw that I had no chance to teach the Dharma. In the past few years, there have been many predestined relationships, and I can’t do it if I don’t talk about it. Only then did I slowly start to develop independently. The net funds for the construction of the dojo I am now responsible for are also actively supported by the students’ Dharma protectors, not me.Up to now, I have always been in awe, fearing that the tree will attract wind or affect Taoism, and I have to rewrite the outline of the speech every time before I ascend to the seat. I don’t dare to be careless. Relying on, I only consider myself to be the messenger of Amitabha, and I don’t have the slightest idea of ​​educating sentient beings by myself. XNUMX% completely rely on the blessing of Buddha’s power.And whenever I have the opportunity to work hard in the practice, I will focus on the practice, especially in the aspect of monkhood and abstinence. It is really impossible to learn even if I live to old age. It is a homework that must be constantly enriched and rooted. When the opportunity is ripe, I also plan to suspend all external affairs of propagating the Dharma from XNUMX, let go of all predestination, stop talking and recite the Buddha for three to five years, and focus on the homework of the door. But doing it is not something that I feel I need to do because I feel the need to do it. If that is the case, it is still a desire for fame and fortune.Therefore, it is a great karma to be promoted to a large lecture, and it is really not something that ordinary people can do. Therefore, it is necessary to be like the ancient great virtue, to have the great karma of great virtue, and to accumulate a lot of virtue.Fortunately, I have gone through many ups and downs so far, and I have done my best to leave enough magic treasures for the public. Next, I will focus on my internal cultivation, continue to accumulate more and more, diligently cultivate precepts, concentration and wisdom, and put an end to greed, hatred, and delusion. This is the duty that true monks and cultivators should pay special attention to.