I wrote this letter after I returned to Taiwan after graduating from the Hongfa training class in Singapore. I originally wanted to make a phone call to say goodbye to Master Shadu, because I had already planned to return to other monasteries, and I always felt that I should tell Master. Unexpectedly, on the phone, the master intentionally asked me to return to Shadu, and afterwards, in order to complete all my spiritual practice, after all the discussions on the phone, I promised to go back again. I did not expect that after Shadu returned to Shadu, he was the master brother. Do n’t let me live in the dojo. After a week of commuting to a relative ’s house to place an order every night for a week, Master suddenly asked me to leave again. At that time, I thought that Master was joking…. From then on, my body and mind really became real. Leaving often lives.

In short, after leaving, I started my ordeal journey. First of all, the situation I face is nowhere to go. In the Buddhist temple, as a Shamini who has not received a great commandment, it is like a national without an identity card. The temples in Fafa cannot be lived. Fortunately, the Buddha and Bodhisattva protected the dragon and protected the dragon. I met the old monk who was holy on the Lantau Island in Hong Kong. Finally, he received two monks and three altars under his seat. The Great Ring became a qualified bhikkhuni. Before being ordained, I passed through all the difficulties of Master Baolin Temple. I had to get my permission letter from Master Shadi before letting me place my order. I used to live here and was blocked by Master and brothers. It was n’t until Master finally made a request to Master in the form of this letter.

 At the end of this letter, I asked Master to unravel my situation, to see if I could introduce other masters to achieve my ordination ... The tone was demanding rather than requesting, because if it was n’t for the second time Master told me to go back, Somehow driven me away, and I would not be in such an uncomfortable situation. At that time, I was full of resentment towards Master. This kind of pain, coupled with the obstacles to the promotion of law in the years to come, has been unable to release and resentment. Only getting deeper and deeper, until after more than ten years of self-cultivation in the practice to a certain degree of liberation, this is a bit of effort to resolve the pain in the heart, nightmares are no longer repeated.

As Master Dadu wrote, the Dharma speaks of the cause, everything is the cause of the third world. For the practitioner, the condition is not ugly. Everything can be an increased condition of the Tao. Otherwise, if you do n’t see the truth of the world through the practice, All the fate will only be the cause of constant entanglement, endless. Now that I have increased my blessing, I am walking steadily on the way to achieve Buddhism, so seeing all the causes and conditions is like the same story. Let the past let it pass, and you do n’t have to climb in the future. You can only focus on the present and enjoy The freedom and ease of the game world, all conditions are also grateful.

Zhuang Jing (written by Shi Airen, Jingun, Pichon, 2019-10)